Have you noticed that the current battle lines are all drawn around conflicting fears? My fear of losing my freedom is more legitimate than your fear of the virus. My fear of vaccines is more legitimate than your fear of living in a world without them. My fear of economic ruin is more legitimate than your health fears. My fear of conspiracies is more legitimate than your fear of misinformation. What if we focused on supporting each other and caring about the fact that there is so much fear right now? Fear is a healthy emotion designed to keep us safe from possible threats. My fear is not more legitimate than yours. I care that you are afraid. I want to help create a world with far less fear and far more compassion and empathy. If we focus on what we love rather than what we fear, we can create a new way of being with each other.
Words matter. They can actually be more impactful than actions. Words incite wars, peace treaty agreements, long-term commitments and social contracts. Without communication we are impotent…powerless. A word that has been invoked a myriad of times online, across multiple platforms, is the word “VIRAL.” How many times have you heard someone describe a Facebook, Instagram, Twitter or YouTube post as going viral? We wait with baited breath for our communication to multiply exponentially, traveling the globe. We covet recognition, fame and fortune. Now that we are experiencing the very REAL impact Covid-19 is having, we understand the concept of what going viral REALLY means. Honestly, I am reticent to ever use that word again to describe the propagation of an idea or content. We are experiencing collectively the speed with which a deadly virus can reproduce, drift and shift.
Perhaps taken in this context, the naysayers and disbelievers will pause. The “overnight” sensations that have been made through a viral post are commonplace. We have seen the effects of these posts that inspire, educate, provoke or destroy. This contagion is no different. Its destructive force is felt physically, financially, psychologically, collectively. This virus is real. Its destructive impact is real. Please, take it seriously. Protect those you love. Advocate for the physician, nurse or health professional who is courageously fighting on your behalf. The speed at which this virus travels is mind blowing.
Right now we are immersed in the language of this pandemic. Let’s use the viral energy for good. Let’s infect our world with acts of viral courage, viral compassion, viral kindness, viral empathy. If we do, our healing and recovery is assured.
Ever notice how hard it is to find the right words sometimes? We try to communicate a thought or feeling and the person on the receiving end misses the point or misinterprets what we are trying to say. It is highly frustrating for everyone involved. I notice this happening a lot right now. Over and over again I read news stories about how lethal or non-lethal Covid-19 is. We argue about it and shout at each other brandishing actuarial tables. But the number of casualties isn’t the point. It isn’t a particularly deadly virus, it IS a particularly contagious one.
Remember those recent Christmas shopping tales where a large volume of people try to push into a department store? Everyone is intent on purchasing that perfect holiday gift. They are focused, they are clear headed, they are on a mission. Unfortunately, putting a large number of intensely focused people in a commercial space creates chaos and leads to violence. Angry words are exchanged, tempers escalate and violence ensues. We watch these events unfold, feeling helpless, overwhelmed and embarrassed.
The current crisis is not all that different. It isn’t about the number of fatalities the Covid-19 virus will cause, it’s about the sheer volume of people who could become infected all at once and need help. And while this large number of people flood our medical establishments desperate for interventions, the folks in line already waiting for an appendectomy, diverticulitis surgery or emergency surgery post car accident…, wait. They wait and they wait and they wait. Our local hospitals deluged by hundreds or thousands of folks needing everything from a prescription, to an oxygen mask, to an inhaler, to an antibiotic are overwhelmed by the colossal number of sick people. Infected folks are pushed to the front of the line. It makes sense, right? But in this scenario, all other health issues become secondary. In this situation an appendix unnecessarily bursts, a diverticulitis infection turns septic and a simple un-obtained trauma surgery leads to death. In this profile there isn’t a bed or an operating room to be had. It isn’t just the Covid-19 infections putting us at risk, but every common illness or malady has the potential of becoming lethal.
It’s NOT about how deadly Covid-19 is, it’s about how very contagious it is. And when you have a highly contagious pathogen that infects a large volume of people all at once, our already taxed medical system won’t be able to meet the tsunami of folks inundating the system looking for help. A tsunami kills not merely because it is comprised of water. A tsunami kills because of its enormous volume.
I don’t have any statistics to fling in your direction. I don’t need or want to argue with anyone. All I want is for you to have access to medical interventions when you need them most. I want the infection rate slowed, giving everyone a fighting chance.
Everyone is feeling stressed right now. It is a normal response to the unexpected and demanding circumstances we are experiencing. But is the stress you are feeling just garden variety normal day to day stress or is it something more? Stress is felt in the body as tension and is experienced by the mind as worry. Once you release the tension and address your worry, you usually feel better. If what you are experiencing is more than just normal stress, you may be feeling hypervigilant, emotionally fragile, reactive. If this is the case, then you actually may be experiencing re-traumatization.
Old traumatic experiences revisited during a crisis destabilize us. When old traumas are triggered we find ourselves not only dealing with what is happening in the current moment, but old fears resurrected from the ancient past. This is a normal even predictable response. Distressing memories may return temporarily, but they need not stay. You can interrupt the PTSD cycle now, today, in this moment.
- Stay present with what is happening now. It is tempting to avoid or try to distract yourself. This is not a good strategy. Notice what is happening and stay in the “here and now.”
- Be self-protective. Stress-filled, dramatic events do the most damage when we fail to protect ourselves. Be honest with yourself about what you need to feel safe right now, in this moment. No future tripping. No living in the past. Right here, right now, what do you need?
- Avoid catastrophizing. Worst case scenarios are rarely helpful. Plans, structure and back-up plans are what empower us. If fear threatens to overwhelm, make a plan. Structure helps give us a sense of control.
- Choose empowering action. Be decisive and act on your decisions. Move your body. Don’t shut down. Physical outlets and empowering action are critical.
We are less impacted by traumatic events when we apply these strategies. The good news is that regardless of whether you are experiencing normal stress or feeling re-traumatized…the disruptors are the same!
Did you know that PTSD often coexists with depression? In fact, a third of returning veterans have depression that accompanies their PTSD. If you are struggling with profound sadness, isolation, irritability, sleep disruption, appetite changes, trouble concentrating and are tempted to self-medicate with substances, you may be experiencing PTSD co-existing with depression. Don’t accept the very first diagnosis you were given if it feels like something more complex is going on. The good news is that PTSD and depression (experienced as a result of trauma) respond very well to treatment. It is not hopeless. You are not weak or flawed. You deserve to feel good again.
Trauma is a far more pervasive issue in medicine than anyone is talking about. We know physicians live highly-stressed lives, but we are reticent to talk about the trauma inherent in the field. Many are afraid to talk about living in secrecy with Post Traumatic Stress, because it can be a career killer if you acknowledge your suffering. Physicians joke about OCD, anxiety, burn-out, rarely admitting that they are REALLY struggling with PTSD. Time to tell the truth. There are strategies to heal.
Once you are ready to acknowledge your trauma history, what should you do?
- Don’t keep it a secret.
- Use centering and grounding practices.
- Slow down the trauma response.
- Differentiate the physical versus the emotional.
- Disrupt the trauma cycle with tangible interventions.
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Some of the most intuitive physicians in medicine are emergency and urgent care docs. I remember one physician (Erik) recounting a “20 something” woman who came into the ER complaining of belly pain. All the tests were coming back negative, yet he had an uneasy feeling he refused to ignore. Something was seriously wrong. He wasn’t sure how he knew it, but he did. Insisting on a CT scan despite push back from administration, Erik knew he risked disciplinary action. Hours later the radiologist report came in. A serious and aggressive kidney tumor had been found. So what was it that informed Erik? Some people would write this off as luck or coincidence, but it happens far too often for that to be the case. After years of witnessing, ER docs, Servicemen and women, Police and Firefighters, I notice consistent patterns.
Pattern #1: These individuals have mastered the art of OBSERVATION. They take their time and notice the details.
Pattern #2: They compare and contrast what “their gut,” “the little voice in their head,” or other internal guidance says vs. what standard protocols demand.
Pattern #3: They keep track of their intuitive “wins” and use this track record to support current decisions.
Pattern #4: To these individuals, the risk of playing it safe far outweighs the risk of getting it wrong! They are risk takers.
Pattern #5: They spend time cultivating what they know. Animals have instincts, people have intuition. I think of intuition as that reservoir of knowledge that contains what I’ve gleaned from others, what I have acquired through direct experience and what I pick up through my senses.
Pattern #6: These intuitive types make decisions quickly. They don’t second guess themselves. They trust what they know!
If you want to cultivate your intuition, develop your observation skills using ALL 5 senses. Listen to your gut. Pay attention to all the times you aren’t surprised by the test results and already “knew” what the outcome would be. Don’t dismiss what you intuitively know…..fuel it.
“I can’t believe that I am this exhausted,” his voice was incredulous on the other end of the phone. “How did this happen? All I’ve ever done is live by the golden rule. I’ve put others first. I’m not a jerk. I try to be patient and this is what I get?” I was talking to a man who had just been sued by a long-time patient and was now being pressured by his group practice to settle. He just couldn’t wrap his head around the fact that his selfless service to patients and practice was valued so little.
This happens to many of us. We are taught early to live by the golden rule, yet aren’t given all the information we need to attend to ourselves first, before helping others. Denying our own needs in the service of others is called CO-DEPENDENCE. Co-dependence is not the goal. Because the mission of medicine is to diagnose or cure illness, it is easy to develop a “savior complex.” I believe that is why preventative and lifestyle medicine is so popular. The idea of diagnosing, treating and “saving someone” from their disease process is no longer a viable model. We are (more and more) drawn to the wisdom of helping others learn to care for themselves, averting the chronicity of disease.
If we want to serve others truly, we must first serve ourselves. This requires interdependence, not co-dependence.
How can you tell if you are relating at home and at work from a co-dependent place?
- You struggle with feelings of low self-esteem. It feels like you are never enough at home or at work. You are forever “making up” for ways in which you feel like you have let others down.
- You have poor boundaries. People take advantage of you and you don’t know how to change it. It feels like you give and give and give with little return.
- You want more for others than they seem to want for themselves. You SEE their potential and try to convince them of their value, often to no avail. You leave the interaction feeling discouraged and depleted.
- You put others before yourself. Aren’t we supposed to deny ourselves when we serve? The answer to this question is a resounding, “NO!”
- You struggle with perfectionism. Negative self talk like: “I’m doing something wrong. It must be my fault that people don’t get better, don’t understand or appreciate what I have given them. If I just try harder or get it perfect, then people will appreciate me.”
If you find yourself in the words above, don’t panic…there is hope. The first step is to identify your innate communication style and gently nudge yourself toward more assertive communication patterns. If you can effectively communicate with your loved ones and patients, you create the perfect opportunity for constructing healthy boundaries. Boundaries are not just about saying, “No.” Boundaries are about knowing when to say, “Yes.” A resourced, rested and happy individual finds the exercise of creating boundaries exciting and invigorating.
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- Listening to the WRONG people–We hear it over and over again. People leave residency, a physician retreat or professional conference feeling inspired, convicted and ready to go and then…. Someone asks about your plans. It feels innocent. You take a risk and share your enthusiasm, your hopes and dreams. You feel the “pause,” and throat clearing before the words are even uttered. “Be careful you are warned. Don’t lose your head. It’s important to be realistic.” Seeds of doubt are planted, you waiver and the seeds take root!
- Negative Self-Talk–Seeds of doubt planted, it’s easy to start questioning yourself. Empowering thoughts evaporate. You hesitate to proceed with your strategic plan. Hesitation morphs into “taking a break from it all.” A break extends into avoidance and avoidance becomes inertia. Change the way you talk to yourself. Don’t feed the inner critic. Awaken afresh the dreamer and innovator.
- Forgetting to inspire and motivate yourself EVERYDAY–This is as important as eating. If you don’t fuel your dream, you will begin to forget what your dream even is. You MUST inspire and motivate yourself daily. Inspiring music, videos and books, walks in nature, long talks with friends all conspire to motivate us anew.
- Ignoring successes, progress and breakthroughs–Most of us are only too willing to speak of our defeats and failures. We nurse these wounds and worry about repeating them. Meanwhile, we are performing heroic feats daily, juggling impossible workloads and maintaining complex relationships. Why do we ignore ALL that we are accomplishing and focus instead on what’s left to do?
- Keep moving–Dreams become goals, goals become actions, actions become the literal life you create for yourself. You don’t need to get it perfectly right, just do SOMETHING, anything…